Outside of the airport I smelled cigarettes, as there was a crowd of heavy smokers having a party right in the airport last night – as in the morning the air had not fully cleared up yet; later I realized that was how Beijing air smelled because of the smog. 

From the airport we drove in a Chinese made electric car called BYD with a hieroglyph as its logo in the front. Our hosts have been waiting for a permit for driving a car in Beijing for 10 years, but they couldn't win the lottery; without the permit they could only drive in Beijing days per year. Only last year they were selected for the permit – but only for an electric car, that was how they bought the electric. I was told BYD is now the main competitor of Tesla in China. It doesn't have autopilot mode, but Tesla's autopilot is banned in China at the moment anyway.

For lunch we ate Xian’r-bing – it's a kind of dumplings that is made in flat form, with meat and celary. 

We agreed to meet around 6:30pm for dinner. Then long awaited sleep. Having falling asleep in 15 seconds so easily I don't recall waking up so hardly at the agreed time. I would've paid money just keep my two eyes closed for another 5 minutes. 

We ate hotpot in a room without windows, but with a special extra room for kids. Our only kid was quite happy in that room, just like a cat playing with a toy. The place looked like one of the places in Flushing in Queens – all the same menu, decorations, the setting. There was even a bookshelf, which on a closer examination turned out to hold only fake books – just empty boxes with printed book labels on them. It turned out to be a Beijing thing – as New York is guilty of fake plants, so is Beijing guilty of fake book shelves. 

After hotpot M showed us some fresh green tea collected in April and kept in the fridge since then. We brew the tea in a tea pot on a bamboo stand placed on a tray. The first pour was used to rinse and warm up the tea cups, then thrown under the bamboo stand on the tray. The second pour tasted just amazing – nothing like the green tea that I have tried before: subtle pleasant aroma of strange weeds, and interesting flavors along the subtle recognizable taste of green tea.

Then I tried to setup the Internet. As is, the Chinese Internet feels unacceptably crippled – not only all Google services, but even Medium blogs are blocked. Apple is okay, by the way. Before leaving I had setup my router in New York as a VPN server, so I was wondering how slow it would be to use it from China. So yes, it was slow. The ping was 800ms, almost a second. Even worst, the download speed was visibly slower for some reason – that is beyond my understanding. I understand the delay in response for having to go to New York and then receiving the reply and sending it back – but why it affects the download speed I do not understand. Perhaps my router is just being stupid. It is slow, and it is fine for now. 

Bed by 11.


 I woke up about noon – B asked if I had enough time to pack. I got up and brew some coffee, then I cooked shakshuka, which turned out exceptionally yammy – oyster mushrooms always taste great, and I got the right balance of sour lemon juice and spices. 

Then, while drinking loads of iced tea, I was packing. My method is to 1) have a list of things to pack in Apple Notes, and use the lists from previous years to compose a new list; 2) put everything from the list to the suitcase; 3) if I can’t close the suitcase, then push it hard.

B had a different system with vacuum packing and labeling, but I felt like all this smart packing stressed her out more than me. Well, maybe she is just anxious in general about the trip.

Around 7 we ordered Uber to JFK, it was about $70 for a 50 minutes ride, watching from the window the Bronx projects, Queens, Brooklyn. 

The check-in computer terminals at the airport were all empty, and the line to the check-in assistance was long, so I thought, as it was back in 2000s, I would use the terminals; back then no-one knew how to check-in online but saved so much time. Trying scanning the passport once, twice – nope, not working. Tried another terminal – okay, passed the passport scan phase, then it was asking a US visa for some reason even though we were traveling outside of the US. So we ended up in the line as everyone else. Those terminals are just broken. Then, staying in line, I was observing another guy patiently trying to scan his passport again and again, – so determined, – in 5 minutes he looked pretty frustrated. He had to join the line with everyone else.

Then the nearby bathroom was closed down, and I spent another 15 minutes trying to find another bathroom. Oh, JFK, you could've been a better airport. 

On the flight I read Liang Qichao’s memoirs. He was one of the first Chinese students studying in the US in the early 1900s. “Uncivilized people live underground, half‑civilized people live on the surface, and civilized people live above the ground” – stuff like that, pretty ridiculous for today, but still interesting. He feels ashamed of his Chinese culture of that time, which now reads quite outdated – all cultures are important, right?

Westerners walk together like a formation of geese; Chinese are like scattered ducks. When Westerners speak, if they are addressing one person, then they speak so one person can hear; if they are addressing two people, they make two people hear; similarly with ten and with hundreds, thousands, and tens of thousands. The volume of their voices is adjusted appropriately. In China, if several people sit in a room to talk, they sound like thunder. If thousands are gathered in a lecture hall, the [speaker’s] voice is like a mosquito. When Westerners converse, if A has not finished, B does not interrupt. With a group of Chinese, on the other hand, the voices are all disorderly; some famous scholars in Beijing consider interrupting to be a sign of masterfulness — this is disorderliness in the extreme. Confucius said, “Without having studied the Book of Songs one cannot speak; without having studied the rites, one cannot behave.” My friend Xu Junmian also said, “Chinese have not learned to walk and have not learned to speak.” This is no exaggeration. Though these are small matters, they reflect bigger things.

London, Heathrow. It was about noon.

I remember those long walks in Heathrow, transitioning here back when I was a kid in 2008. I felt like walking in some place from a dream. Yeah, those long all glass walls, long walks, the bus between the terminals – strangely I still remember it, though I say all airports look the same; I never recall it, yet it's still with me. Why in the world this airport is so big? I dislike large airports – they don’t serve their function well; they feel like a shopping mall. Why do I have to go to a shopping mall every time I want to travel? We don’t need more shopping malls, we just need efficient airports. Oh, well. 

We took a bus from terminal 3 to 5, then decided to eat something. There was a Japanese ramen place. The prices looked reasonable – of course, it’s cause it's the British pound. An airport worker talked with a perfect Cockney accent, made me smile.

Then another check-in – the terminals were the same as in the JFK, and still broken. We joined the assistance line. Then, a lady came by and said “May I ask you why you are staying in the queue, sir?” Wow, I wanna speak like British now. She nice to tell us that we were staying in a wrong line.

Then, lots of walks along the all glass walls, and, so, we got to the security check. An Indian lady told me to get rid of water – but water was in a water bottle, I couldn’t throw away the bottle. I asked the lady where I could pour the water from my bottle. She said there is no way we pour it to the trash bin. She looked a little intimidating She suggested just to drink the water. I said it was little too much to drink it all for us, but she looked at us as we were just too prickly to do what the airport prescribes. Well, I guess it’s not only JFK can’t organize everything neatly. If we can’t organize airports, how can we even hope to organize entire countries?

Then the security check. A lady, that looked like a guy from some British sitcom, asked me if I had any paper or tissue in my pockets. I said I did. Her voice was so calming, she told me to just hold the tissue in my hand and chill. She wouldn've been a good doctor – making people relaxed and not worried before surgeries.

I could hardly keep my eyes open by the time we got to the gates. There were many asian people around the gate for the flight to Beijing. One girl came to B and asked her something in Chinese. In 30 seconds I've heard her talking about F1 and visa. Chinese are direct people. She was a PhD in computing from some university in Charlotte. By the time of boarding we knew quite some about her. Chinese are warm people.

By the time of boarding I felt like I could fall asleep in 15 seconds, if I let myself. Once boarded I quickly dozed off. The rest of the 11 hours flight felt like a dream. The passengers in the back talked loudly. He was an adopted kid coming to China for the first time since his childhood; I forgot what was her story. I was waking up form their conversation, then falling asleep again, then, partially sleeping, recalling what Liang Qichao wrote – how Chinese talk loudly disproportionately to what's needed to the other person to hear. The entire flight felt excited – everyone talked loudly; it was a late afternoon flight from London with so many people exited about their traveling ahead; but I was the sleepy passenger from New York not fully sleeping and not nearly awake. 

I woke up around dinner time. I read a long article in the New Yorker about an American professor bringing his kids to Sichuan in China for them to pick up some language; mostly about his two years experience with the Chinese education. The math assignment are often very convoluted, with a lot of extraneous information not needed for the solution, with a nothing-to-do-with-math story, and unrealistic actual problem. Reminded me the coding problems from CodeForces. WeChat used for communication with parents, with many parents flooding the chat, and showing off their kids' progress – he calls it "passive-aggressive", though I didn't fully understand why he thinks that way. Yet, parents have ultimately no say, nor give any kind of feedback to the teachers for the actual education process. It ended pretty powerfully arguing that system actually works pretty well in teaching kids maths, and the teachers are respected and encouraged in their profession – unlike the US. "The Double Education of My Twins' Chinese School " by Peter Hessler, it is called.

Then, what – I slept and not slept at the same time, being in a dream like state. We flew around Russia, staying close but not crossing into it. We flew near the Black sea around sunset; I looked towards Ukraine, but it was too cloudy to see anything. The sunrise was around Xinjiang – looked like a dry land with many hills or mountains. Then there was a zigzagging very muddy-looking river, almost like a flood of mud flowing along in the deserted land; as turned out it was the Yellow River – it picks up a lot of clay on the way, and it is exactly why it is called Yellow. I did not see anything like that before. Descending near Beijing was spectacular – very green, dark green mountains seen from above low-altitude scattered clouds; I was said the great wall was somewhere there, but I did not find the wall, but it all looked impressive to see anyway.

The airport was big, but empty. Beijing Daxing International was completed in 2019, is the largest single building airport, but it remains quite empty – our flight was only one of a handful flights landing in the morning. After a short walk we got to the passport control. I went to the foreign passports line, and B went to domestic. The line was not too long, but turned out very slow. Most of the people in line were asian, speaking English with accent – Chinese have to give up their citizenship and get a visa in order to visit China again if they take another citizenship. Only two security officers were checking the passports very carefully and talking extensively to the visitors. Sometimes they called another officer, who, quite dramatically, picked up an old style wired phone from the booth, for some reason standing above the booth, the officer would call someone, and then, while standing above the booth and holding the wired phone headset, dictated something from the passport to the telephone. That repeated for some visitors. I realized the line will take at least an hour.

Meanwhile another flight arrived – this time from Moscow; many Russians joined our line. They all looked like what we call "vatnyks" – the same short haircut, colorful sport t-shirts and shorts, tanned faces, and this piercing direct eye contact that I am guilty of myself. I did not feel like starting a conversation with them and rather focused on trying to recognize any Chinese characters around the airport that I had learned in the past month in DuoLigvo. Poor China, I thought, now Russian chavs hardly can travel anywhere, China is receiving the dumbest of Russian tourists. Realizing how slow the line was they started complaining. "Look, each person takes five minutes to process. There are fifty people in the line, and two officers processing. Go figure yourself how long it will take," – one said. I was trying to make sense of the sign "Please step besides the yellow line" written in Chinese. 黄 "huang" is yellow, like 黄河 "huang he" – Yellow River. Why was 外 "wai" on the sign, like in 老外 "laowai" – foreigner? Turns out 外 "wai" means outside – so "laowai" is like "old outsider". Then I finally go to the officer. He asked me where I was from, and was going to explain how I was born in Russia and brought to Greece, and that I'm actually American, but I realized the officer barely understood a single word from me, so then I just said I was from America. B was waiting for me outside – she already made a friend talking to an old lady. Chinese are warm people. "Hello Laowai!" – yelled some kid at me.

Then we drove along a wide empty freeway. Even though it was a Tuesday morning there were only few cars driving. All that infrastructure is newly built for the airport, but the airport is still not loaded with new flights; I was told. Reminded me "The World" by Jia Zhangke – the same trees, the same buildings, all this clean roads like in the movie; all this new "world". It was about noon when I laid down and fell asleep in about 15 seconds.


 In November, Vermont smells burnt wood. The entire state; wherever we went, there was this nice smoky smell. People burn chimneys, those look romantic; not sure how much they help warming up the houses. Real chimneys calm down and relax, in a way. I'm still not sure how much modern chimneys heat up the houses. Now, at home, my clothes, my backpack all smell burnt wood. What else about Vermont? 

We went in a group of four – that is a challenging group size for my often-just-solo-standards. Driving 4 hours, New York to Plymouth, VT. Like, we stopped for a dinner at TGI Fridays – that was a mistake, surely. There was this sense that each other, separately, we could find something nicer than what we've got: we got this shitty TGI Fridays, but that was the compromise that we found. It was late after 10pm, and finding something good open was not easy. 

The next morning, I was the last to wake up, around 10:30am. B cooked me an egg, we sat and talked and drank coffee and ate snacks, and planned the day, and took pictures around our wooden house – AirBNB. We went to Killington for a hike in the afternoon. I've seen the ski lifts, but no snow yet. I almost went there in March 2020, and then I got an email saying there was the rumor of the virus, but the trip was on track, no worries. Then less than a day before the trip, I got the email saying everything was canceled; so I never went to Killington for snowboarding. Anyway, this time we went hiking to a trail with a waterfall in the end. It was pretty easy. I did not even get bored with hiking.

Then we went back to our gorgeous wooden house, cooked hotpot, had food and conversations. I wonder how many people travel in American countryside with their own hotpot, like us. The nearest hotpot was in Boston, hours away, according to Google. 

The house was the best part of the trip. Two floors, patio, bon fire, so many things to do in there. Thinking retrospectively, why did we even bother to leave the house? I don't know; we went to Woodstock – that felt like a tourist trap, but fine. A small town along the road with bougie arts & crafts stores, gladly no chain stores. The art gallery was of the type "look at all this beautiful nature and the house, and the sky," and all heavily photoshopped, printed and framed for someone who had never seen good art. Nah. Staying in our house proved to be better time spending.

In the house I figured out the fireplace. There were two knobs: one called the damper, another called the draft. The draft controlled the air flow which in turn controlled how fast the fire burned. I didn't figure out what the damper was for. The fire looked great in the living room, and the smoky wood smell felt comforting. I had doubts about the actual heat that we got from it, but who knows.

Another night we watched a movie – Miss Peregrine's Home for Peculiar Children – by Tim Burton. I got bored with that. Another night – boardgames: Ticket to Ride, and Uno. Ticket to Ride took almost three hours for four of us; that felt too long. Uno seemed easier. The rule to say "uno" when you have the last card was quite irritating though, but it is part of the fun to irritate your friends. Cheryl brought some video games on Nintendo Switch to play together, but we didn't get to those, unfortunately. I like learning what video games other people play.

Overall, I feel happy after getting away from the city and spending some time with friends in a big house cooking, playing games, hiking and watching movies.

Somehow, pictures look nicer than real life indeed.
Somehow, pictures look nicer than real life indeed.
So funny to see Vermontians shopping for hiking shoes and stuff.
So funny to see Vermontians shopping for hiking shoes and stuff.

Погостил у мамы в Афинах несколько недель. Обычно я куда-нибудь в Берлин по пути заезжаю, а в этот раз была грандиозная идея проехать на поездах от Осло до Софии, но как-то лень пересилила, да и денег жалко – взрослею, романтика "Перед Рассветом" уже не такая романтика; прямой рейс Нью-Йорк – Афины стал выглядеть заманчивее скитания по неизведанным странам без цели.

Как же я ошибался. Путешествия всегда того стоят. Не знаю что с мозгом происходит, но какая-та сильная стимуляция от перемещения в другую культуру. Моя любимая Джамайка Кинкейд объясняет это эффектом побега от банальности и пустоты собственной жизни и наслаждением банальностью и пустотой чужой жизни:

That the native does not like the tourist is not hard to explain. For every native of every place is a potential tourist, and every tourist is a native of somewhere. Every native everywhere lives a life of overwhelming and crushing banality and boredom and desperation and depression, and every deed, good and bad, is an attempt to forget this. Every native would like to find a way out, every native would like a rest, every native would like a tour. But some natives—most natives in the world—cannot go anywhere. They are too poor. They are too poor to go anywhere. They are too poor to escape the reality of their lives; and they are too poor to live properly in the place where they live, which is the very place you, the tourist, want to go—so when the natives see you, the tourist, they envy you, they envy your ability to leave your own banality and boredom, they envy your ability to turn their own banality and boredom into a source of pleasure for yourself.

Это из маленькой книжки под названием "A Small Place"; там она по панковски стыдит массовый туризм, но заставляет задуматься и о туризме в целом. Туризм – сильный стимулятор жизни, нужно не ленится, не жалеть денег.

С Афинской погодой я видимо так и не разобрался. Не помню чтобы летом дождь там видел, а тут ливни какие-то, грозы, а я даже кофту с собой не взял. На море волны. Экстремальная жара видимо только в западной Европе в этом году. Но Средиземное море прекрасное, заряжает энергией, стимулирует, хочется читать, писать, но от полуденного солнца все же хочется сидеть и смотреть на мир как овощ, наблюдать.

Дома все по Фолкнеровски – депрессия по духовному разложению, желания надуманных идеалов, которых нет, и т.д. Раньше меня это задевало, а по мере взросления я дистанцировался, вижу себя со стороны персонажем чужого романа. Семейка у меня конечно не скучная, если со стороны смотреть. Маман, сильный характером человек, создает уйму тревоги вокруг всех нас – меня, брата, сестры. Отгородится от этих тревог очень сложно. Все разговоры со ставкой в жизнь, не меньше. Ох!

Наконец, про войну перетерли со всеми в личном разговоре. А то мы превращались в еще одних персонажей "Разрыва Связи" Лошака – просто переставали общаться на фоне некоторых раздражающих фраз. Личный разговор лучше Фейстайма. Все "неоднозначности" у них пропали, все вроде понятно для них, и расхождений у нас нет. При этом мама стала отрицать, что в 2012 за хуйло голосовала. Я помню, мне больно тогда было, она мне по телефону сказала, что чувствует, что хуйло сейчас (тогда) нужен России, или что-то в этом роде. Но может и правда не голосовала? Может я позабыл и что-то путаю? И слов то я ее уже совсем не помню, только впечатление, эта боль, а оно ведь может быть обманчивым. Десять лет прошло; надо было в дневник записывать, сейчас уже не вспомнишь.

Маман училась в Одесе и у нее много друзей из Украины. При этом одна ее хорошая подруга П в Одесе топит про "все неоднозначно". Ну я таких судить не могу – я pro-war русских готов судить, а от украинцев что угодно готов слушать. Они кровью сражаются, и сражаться или нет это их выбор. Но что меня зацепило это то, что маман сказала как это подруга П "в итоге настроила всех своих детей против себя". И вот я думаю теперь, правда ли маман думает как говорит, или просто меня против себя настраивать не хочет? Наверное правду все же говорит. Может и сама уже не помнит за кого голосовала. Уже не так важно.

В остальном читал Илиаду, написал гору каких-то повседневных дневников на которую и смотреть не хочется; покодил BERT для определения о каком человеке статья в Wiki; поизучал Final Cut Pro основы как резать видео. Илиада шла тяжеловато, куча каких-то богов, персонажей, легко запутаться, но к 6-ой книге начал втягиваться. Дневники на потом, надеюсь. А BERT казалось должен бы быть умнее, но я наверное где-то какую-нибудь глупость с ней делаю и сам дурак. Final Cut Pro клевый; не знаю на сколько его на профессиональные фильмы хватает, но для себя давно надо было купить и разобраться. Надо уметь покотцать музыку с сохранением бита, и то же самое с видео надо уметь всякие основы.

Греция странная страна. Вроде НАТО, при этом анти-американские настроения сильны, и симпатии к востоку тоже сильны (но не к Турции, естественно). Повсюду видны анархистские течения – граффити, патлатые парни с анархистской символикой. Я раньше не понимал кто такие, а этим летом про все это почитал, теперь понятнее. Брат оказывается и в Бакунине, и в Кропоткине разбирается, и в эко анархизме, до которого я еще не добрался. Может получше эту страну начну понимать. Язык конечно лучше учить, и с людьми разговаривать; все равно я сюда ездить все время буду. Стимулирует это посмотреть на чужую банальность жизни.

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